My grief is very heavy... I do not have the strength to carry anything else. I don't have room for negative thoughts. If it doesn't matter, then I'm letting it go because I'm moving forward.
I need to keep moving forward... day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. I will conquer my grief. Love is greater than death.
Wow, wow, wow! This quote... this quote is a turning point... a revelation in my grief. This is Ollie! These are the tools he's given me to keep moving forward. Ollie's life had so much purpose... and while it's very hard to think of any reason to justify his death, I will not let his death be in vain. He was gift! He was SO strong! He taught me that I'm strong! I've never thought of myself as strong. He taught me life's greatest, most important gifts... LOVE, HOPE, JOY! He opened my eyes to my faith and the important role it plays in my life.
I have to slow down, I have to focus on one thing at a time, I have to soak up everything that is (truly) important and let go of the things that aren't. No added stress. I am fragile right now and I need to take life day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment.
On January 3, 2013, my 1 yr old son, Ollie, passed away. That's where my life "before Ollie" ends and my grief journey begins... My new normal, my path toward healing, my life "after Ollie". I'm a grieving mother who believes in hope. This is my story.